Jesus, You Are The Way, The Truth & The Life...

Jesus-branded Tees

2008-09-03T07:47:00.000-07:00

Looking for a cool stylish shirt to proclaim the name of our Saviour? Check out www.jesusbranded.com for fashionable and unique bold designs! Let us be proud of what we wear, and be bold to give all glory to Jesus, who is altogether lovely!

My little announcement: Going once, going twice...

2008-08-21T06:35:00.000-07:00

So much has happened in the past few months. And what can I say? Circumstances may change, moods even more so, but one thing is for certain. His love for me was demonstrated not based on my circumstances, but based on his death and resurrection at the cross. Daddy God has been so faithful to His promises. I find myself astounded time and time again, at His tender mercies and loving kindness towards me. Really enjoy this accelerated growth journey. Getting to know His love for me, all over again! Will His goodness ever cease? Never!

Just wanted to make a little announcement. My friend and I are finally ready to clear stocks... yes, the little business that we ventured for a taste of entrepreneurship. Lol. Thank you! my dear friends who have supported me in the past. Really feel so blessed and loved to have your support! Now, we are clearing what's left of our limited designs protective laptop skins. It used to cost $21.90. Our clearing price: $13.90. Yup! And of course, for those who supported me in the past, on top of it, if you want to buy another design to give your laptop another personality, you get a very special discount! Disclosed to you personally only.

Do contact me if you want to brand your laptop with our uniquely fashionable and glorious christian laptop skins! Can't get them from the market out there! :) Feel free to send me a personal message of inquiry too.

Doing door to door surveys and getting zero done

2008-07-08T07:59:00.000-07:00

The meaning of favour is fully realised when you come upon a day where you seems not to experience it. After today, it dawned on me how tender the Lord has been to me for such a long time. He has been so protective, sheltering me as much as he can. Watching in delight as I totally enjoyed the favour that he lavished on me. Even as I took for granted and basked in His favour and goodness.

It was today, when I came knocking on the doors of reality, that the harshness and selfishness of people slamming doors in my face, despite the bubbly favour that was on me, really hurt and stung. And in spite of these encounters in the darkness of the lone corridors, Daddy God's gentle comfort reminded me that even if no one was willing, He will prove Himself faithful in the end. I may not see it today, but it's about deciding still to trust in His faithfulness. To know that ultimately, at the end of it all, He will come through for me. And it was as if, at that very moment, He was patting me on the head, gently saying that He was proud of me.

Dare Engage '08, Arrow Camp, RT

2008-06-25T00:21:00.000-07:00

A heart so filled with God's goodness. Failing, and learning that God's love is always there to catch me when I fall. Uplifting, trusting me still, always faithful to tell me that He loves me unconditionally, no matter what. Awesome.

The courage to dare to vision was restored during the Engage. It was all about having faith is God's goodness, really. (P.S Been busy with my daregroup's blog: A2J!

www.xanga.com/a2jesus

for our activities!)

Arrow camp was immediately the week after the Dare camp. Was tremendously blessed by the work that Daddy God was doing in me. What a fast and accelerated work. It was all about going back to the one thing needful. It was only one thing that matter. The love of God. Everything else pales in comparison. Being so soaked, day in and day out, in the presence of sweet Jesus was just so beautiful. All titles and identities that I've held on to my reins were stripped away and rediscovered anew the one identity: my identity in Christ. I am Jesus beloved, full stop. It's all about enjoying the love of God.

A fresh revelation how my life really needed the fresh word of God. Saw for myself that the word can be so gripping, yet tender. :)

Love my camp group. Thank you Jesus, for so much favour and love from them!

Recently, just started relief teaching again three days ago. It's been two years since I last stepped into the school that I came to know so many precious youths for more than 8 months. This time, was given all the upper sec normal acad and tech students. I was stunned that the favour I experienced was not just the same as two years ago, but it was even more staggering. Not only all my express ex-students remembered me, but even for those whom I did not teach before, (that is the normal acad students) there were such supernatural bonding towards me! They all knew me. And the favour. Gosh. It was so intense, that I was able to speak into their lives. And they listened.

The malays, the chinese in the normal streams, many were misguided, some were lost (without realising it), many were hoping against hope that they could get out of the vicious cycle. Some had built defenses over the years, some were cold, and many were empty. They were all searching for a Saviour. But they didn't know. I felt so much compassion. It wasn't me. It was God. And I knew that when I encouraged them, God was already doing His work in their midst. Teachers who couldn't handle their classes were telling me that their classes said they love me, remembered what I taught and wanted me to stay permanently. The teachers were amazed that such a notorious class whom everyone had already given up hope, were still able to learn. But I know the reason.

When He gave me such astounding favour, it was for a greater purpose.

Like a child, counting my blessings

2008-05-19T09:43:00.000-07:00

Another semester over. I have now officially finished 2 years of Computer Engineering. Started the most tiring and infamous Semester 2 that made its name by trapping many of its victims with the tentacles that came in the name of projects that never cease to end coupled with examinations that give you a mere 10 days to prepare. The above long sentence seemed to sum it up pretty well.

And I'm glad that I came across this Semester in the beginning of this year. Especially when the word for 2008 was that it is to be the year of manifested blessings. Praise...the... Lord! The reason for the lack of life of my blog was due to my endless business.

Yet in the midst of the storm, I truely witness such blissful peace, and enjoyment that I never had before, doing the projects, going through the challenges, seeing how God delivered me, how my cries of despair ever so quickly became thanksgiving and shouts of praises. The joy that burnt in my heart as I prepared for exams, the light of revelation unveiling the darkness to reveal understanding in subjects, and realising that gone was the fear of exams, in replacement was excitement in familiarity.

As much as I can remember, I have penned down all the little blessings of God in my book of blessings. It has only been the beginning of the 5th month of this year, and already, the pages of my book has been filled. I had to find a new book full of empty pages.

I suspect I will be filling them up fast pretty soon too. Cos, this Semester break is going to be one heaven of an experience. Step into the Zone concert is coming up this Sat! Then there's Dare Engage Camp and Arrow Camp coming right up, closely behind each other too. I truely expect a harvest of testimonies to be shared in the following posts.

I love you, Daddy God. You are too good to me.

'07 Arrow Adventure Camp

2007-12-23T23:06:00.000-08:00

When I first heard that Arrow's year end camp was going to be an Adventure Camp, I was extremely disappointed. As I was serving in Dare, we just had a Dare's Adventure Camp in June and I was so looking forward to a relaxing History Makers' camp in a hotel. After getting over my initial hesitance, I signed up for Arrow's Adventure Camp (without thinking)... and lived the remaining days in regret and dread. Just kidding... I was exaggerating...but...occassionally, I did have second thoughts about the camp.

But I have to say this. Daddy God is really more than faithful. I felt that I have risen to another level during the camp itself. On the first day, we went through training sessions which taught us what to do if there were dog/bee attack. We were taught how to read maps too and have to go through obstacles challenge. We had to go through the swinging tunnel of tyres, cross the bridge of tyres that are hanging above ground, climb up suspended nets and climb over the 'low' wall with the help of our good-natured gentleman brothers. The day ended with us planning for mission 1 where we will have to go to many different cities, Besor etc. to get allies and finally to Zion to rescue our royal King and Queen. We were to start off no later than 8am. Lights off at 12 midnight.

However, 1 hour later, we woke up at 1am to the furious and frantic banging of the doors by our trainers, shouting that we have to set off earlier than planned. Everyone rushed to dress up, get their backpacks and ran to the field. Even though everything seemed so alien to me, my cg, known as Charlie 1 for the camp, brought forth much humor to me. For example, everyone was in their full gear: shirt, trackpants, sportshoes/boots and backpag and it was a hilarious sight to see Jimmy, without any backpack... and he was just holding an empty mug. I nearly got the shock of my life when I asked him what he was doing with his mug and he answered me: " For milo." I couldn't help it. I just started laughing. The camp trainers were doing their best trying to create an atmosphere of stealth and urgency of attacking enemies in the darkness and here was our good friend with his hilarious ways. Don't get me started on his other antics. When we reached Besor and entered the gates with all the eerie lights, everyone was just silently following Coach Jo (who was upkeeping her act of a fierce and no-nonsense army commando) through the place. And from behind me, Jimmy whispered, " Hey Steven! Camera....quickly take photo! Later no more opportunity." The idea was really funny. Imagine the whole group stopping to quickly snap a group photo at 2am in the morning in the midst of enemy's territory.

All in all, the route march was one of the most memorable event of my life. How can I ever forget the 12 km walk with all the various obstacles? (keeping our balance on a swing, standing on a horizontal pole on a curved shape semi-circle, doing leopard crawl under nets to find the key to unlock the locks, being carried through holes in the net etc. ) The company was excellent, the humor, the encouragement and the drawing of strengths together in a corporate way from the Lord himself through the singing of praises above the ferocious barking of wild dogs. Jia How and Jerome, being our map-reader and pacer, led us to reach the campsite at 7a.m; we ended up being the earliest and waited for our other Charlie groups for 2 hours, of which we enjoyed our blessed nap of sleeping along the roadsite beneath the wide expanse of the blue sky. It was definitely something to be remembered for ages to come.

When the rest of the Charlies reached, we had to rush into the campsite and complete a series of obstacles and ended the day jumping into the mudpool and crossing it while holding our backpacks above our heads. We were drenched all the way down to our shoes with mud, but amazingly, I found the mudpool most refreshing. And praise be to the Lord, after lunch, we got our blessed beauty sleep from 2 to 6pm. After which, there was another fun training session which involves crazy people taking turns to run around and shout "On!". I thank God for the guys who were in such remarkably good spirits considering the fact that they have been through similar things in army before. Imagine that Issac actually took leave from army to come to this camp. Hahaha but God never shortchange His people.

That night, Coach Jo and Pastor Benjamin shared their hearts on the camp with various cgls coming forth to share their portion too. We felt so inspired to receive our portion outside our comfort zone. Joseph even declared that he was ready to uptake mission 2. After which, Sam Chan declared that mission 2 was cancelled. Unbelievably, some of us even felt the smallest tinge of disappointment. Wahaha the night ended with us breaking into our groups and share with each other. I got what I wanted from Daddy.

I knew I had to leave on the third day for Dare leaders' retreat and I wanted to have my portion before I left, and I did. I went through the most tiring yet memorable route march with my fellow comrades, and I did not miss out on the sharing, which was really awesome. It's amazing to hear how each and everyone of us received so much, just on the 2nd day of camp.

Daddy is more than faithful. Previously, during the camp, I was worried about how I was going to leave the camp (which was situated in the middle of nowhere) and make my way to YWCA, fort canning lodge. There was no other Dare leaders to go with me and no one to offer me transport. At last, I really decided that there was nothing I could do, but to really just trust in the Lord. And Daddy is true to His promises. On the night of the 2nd day, Tsu Ting came up to me, saying that she has just been invited to the retreat as well! I was amazed, cos it was truely a last minute thing for her. Not only now I have someone to go with, but transport was provided by her mum! Not just out of the campsite, but all the way from Sarimbun to YWCA! God is indeed gracious. It was totally unexpected and undeserved.

Even though, I missed the third day of fun, what with the blindfolding, the walking through dirty canals, and the anointed campfire session (which I heard that many, including guys, cried when they were touched by the Lord)... I believed I had the best of both worlds. Dare leaders' retreat was my first retreat ever and it was so anointed! I've gained much during that one day, through Pastor Daniel's sharing, and through fellowship with the other leaders. Being an armour-bearer first internalise Jonathan's vision (in this case, your leader's) and that is when we step into the role of Jonathan and become a leader to others. Foremost, the Lord prioritises ministry to Himself than ministry to others; He values our relationship with Him above all else.

On the last day, I came back to join my Charlie 1 for service at the Rock. And I guess it was because I really had such a high expectation to receive from Pastor Benjamin, that I really received such a tremendous portion. It felt so surreal to be sitting among my peers and not youths, to be receiving from Pastor Benjamin, instead of Pastor Daniel. I used to take Arrow (then known as Campus) for granted. Now, I grasped every minute of it with a hungry spirit. I love the part on memorising does not change perception. It is when you meditate, that your perception will be change. A change in perspective: from a perspective of a stumbling stone to that of a stepping stone, from a setback to a comeback, from a victim to a victor! And such a change in perception will cause the word of God to become a revelation which will then become a revolution in your life.

How do we keep seeing what God has on the inside of us? How does the spirit of wisdom and revelation open our eyes of understanding? The key to the impartation of the spirit of wisdom and revelation so that our eyes may be enlightened is that we hear... and understand. To hear with my heart is to ask the Lord: "Lord, which part of the sermon are you speaking to me? How does this apply in my life?"

In revelation, it is WHO do I say that Jesus is. It is not what others say or think of him, but it is what I have caught in my own life personally about Jesus, who is the living Son of God. When you have the consciousness that you are reading God's love letters in the Bible, you begin to have revelation. It will transform and excite you!

Worship was really different. It was just so heartfelt in the tangible presence of God. The anointing oil service was awesome. Coach Lewis prayed for me, to receive the power and love from Daddy. At the later part, Pastor Benjamin asked those who have the desire to serve in ministry to come forward. At first, I was hesitant, cos I was asking Daddy if I should go up since I'm already serving. And with such clarity, I heard this word from within: "Go." I thought I was imagining things, but then, I heard it again. So I went forward. As I was standing there, I told Daddy that I want my inner vision to be restored, I want to be used even more mightily by Daddy in the coming year, and I want His anointing so evident in my life. Just as I finished, Pastor Benjamin came to pray for me. He said one sentence: "Her gifts be awakened." And I was slain. Went down peacefully. And arose with the certainty that Daddy loves me. I have an almighty God on my side. Who will be against me? No one.

I truely enjoyed camp this year. Really had a very different experience from last year and all the camps combined. I know why... because our God is so good, that it just gets better and better each year :) Praise Daddy! More to come, amen!

Thanksgiving...

2007-12-16T06:29:00.000-08:00

Dear Daddy God... You have really been so good to me. So much favour, so much grace... love that was demonstrated through many different people in different walks of life, just for me... countless episodes of you telling me that you love me, in so many ways... some that my eyes were opened to, and some, that I've never realised... even up to now.

It's approaching the end of the year soon...and if I were to look back... with a heart of thanksgiving, it will definitely take hours.. or even days to recount your fingerprints on my journey in life in this year. 2007 definitely has been a year of new beginnings. So many things to share... and I'm really at loss at where to start. Will have to take time to really pen down all that is in my heart... but for now...

I just want to thank everyone of you... who has blessed me with their friendship and presence, some way or another. Yesterday was 15th Dec, my birthday. My heart is just so filled to the brim with Daddy's love... and to all those who contributed in His plan for me... a BIG THANK YOU to everyone!!!!

For the first time in my life... my birthday was celebrated 7 times. The number of perfection. And every one of them bore special memories for me. The first was actually celebrated on the 25th Nov. It was the most hilarious celebration. Due to some funny mistake in the database, the Almighties (the sec 2 Dare leaders) thought that my birthday was on the 15th Nov instead... I was just having an innocent dinner with the group and Coach Hee Jhun was classic. He kept on asking (with this hugely suspicious smile) if this month was a special month for me. I was confused... but could not figure out where he was heading to. And to my utter shock, I heard someone coming from behind me with a cake and everyone just started bursting out into a joyful birthday song for me. The only thing was...it was the wrong month. After much tears of laughter... I cut the cake with the warm feeling of Daddy's love for me. Felt tremendously blessed. God indeed has a sense of humor.

The 2nd time they got it correct. After Dare service, we had a meeting cum fellowship session at Gloria's Jean which ended at... 1am! LOL. I went to the ladies and came back sooner than the rest expected. I saw their shocked faces, but didnt think much of it because at the same moment, someone at the other end of the table was asking for Gideon. Everyone including me, turned our head to his direction. At that very same moment, we saw the waitress handing a lighter and a candle to Gideon. There was a strange silence at the table. Before we could even react, Gideon came back to our table, sat across me, without realising that anything was amiss, or that I was back from the ladies...he asked nonchalantly where to place the candle. And then he looked at me. And went OHHH NO! Haha, and no one could keep in their laughter anymore. The entire table roared with laughter. Coach HJ was laughing the hardest... everyone was just shaking.... nonetheless, the celebration was another classic.

But just felt so warmed by my endearing Almighties leaders. Felt so loved by Daddy through each and every one of them. What a sweet and precious family.

Ahh... Shanthi, Peixian and Evangeline were really sweet too. Together with my daregroup, A2J, they collaborated another celebration during dinner at Millenia Walk foodcourt with the dare youths. It was so heartwarming to see my own daregroup (A2J), ex-dg (Zoefied1) and even Peixian's and Evan's dg rushing over to just sing me a birthday song and bless me. I was really stunned and was in a state of bliss. It was really amazing how that day turned out. In the morning, I was just telling Daddy that how I'm going to spend my birthday serving Him in Dare...but Daddy just made it such a special day in my honour. All glory to God...the best Dad in the world.

And the celebration didn't just end on Saturday. I thought that I was going to meet my CGL, Tim Ang, for just a short moment after 3rd service today... maybe to collect a card of well-wishes from my cg members. But what I really didn't expect, was that my entire cg pre-planned a surprise. I was in the arcade watching my youths have a game or two. And behold, while being distracted by Joseph and Pris, my cg came into the arcade with a beautifully lit up cake and a jar of blessings. It was another hilarious episodes because picture this... in the midst of all the noise of the arcade environment, they had to sing an extremely loud birthday song in order to be heard. Seeing my beloved NTU-C cg all gathered in that arcade.... gosh... I just felt so tremendously loved, blessed, and privileged.

Lord, I thank you for all these precious people. Who made time to be such a blessing to me, to demonstrate such love. It's truely by your grace because I know that I'm deserving. All of them are your birthday gift to me. And I thank you for that.

Thank you Almighties. For your open arms. For your love. For everything. You guys rock as my 2nd family!!
Thank you A2J -> I feel so blessed to be spending my birthday with you guys. I thank God for you guys, from the bottom of my heart.
Thank you Dare youths & Zoefied1, for the songs, for your hugs, your blessings, and your presence. Special thanks to Rachel, Charmaine and Emmeline, for your gift of love.
Thank you Edmund and Nicholas, for always addressing me as your beloved da jie, and for coming all the way to Suntec to join me for Dare service. Felt so touched by your card and your awesome gift.
Thank you NTU-C!!! Thank you Tim, Yuan Zhen, Pris, Charlene, Justina, Joseph, Hansel, Issac, Gerard, (did I miss out anyone? Wahaha if I did, then you know it's you that I wanna thank you too!!) Thank you beloveds. For being an awesome bunch of buddies whom I enjoy being with, and receiving from each and everyone of you guys.
Thank you, to everyone who sent me greetings. (And that includes, Pris, Jo, Ruth...) Thank you Pammie, for your precious heart, for organising a dinner for me tomorrow. Thank you for your time and love.
And last but not least, a big thank you to my family. For being so supportive, and understanding. Thank you for your gifts, prayers, and precious time spent together to watch a birthday movie with me, even though it was 1a.m when I came back from my Friday dinner. Knowing that I will be out the whole Saturday, you guys supported me and loved me. Thank you.

I love everyone of you. Thank you Daddy, for every single one of them. Thank you for my blessing. :) With a heart overflowing with love, joy and peace, I shall end here today. Praise you Jesus!

My Heartfelt Cry...

2007-12-13T23:33:00.000-08:00

Daddy God,

This is my prayer to You.

To just bury my heart so deep in You...

that a special guy will have to go through You,

to get to me.

Amen.

Reports from a missing person...

2007-12-09T03:47:00.000-08:00

Yes, I was missing for months... missing from blogging because I was so busy... busy with exams... haha from the 15th - 30th Nov was exams exams exams! But looking back...2007 was really the year of new beginnings... so far...I'm into my 2nd year of Computer Engineering... one more semester to finish year 2.... and you know what? Daddy God is really unbelievably good to me! Each sem gets easier and easier...year 1 sem 1 I was struggling with my new subjects but come year 2 sem 1..by right, it's supposed to be more difficult...but in fact it was easier! I don't deny it, there were challenges here and there but on the whole God was with me, every step of the way... and here I am, another sem conquered by the grace of God. Praise the lord!!!

Just came back from Bangkok... yes, I was whizzed away for a blessed family holiday immediately after exams!! Had an awesome time shopping and eating with them from the 1st - 6th Dec. I had a fashion makeover...wahaha! All thanks to my mum for her choice of new clothes and accessories... Awesome taste. All in the name of fun, here are some photos!! Whee....

Reached Singapore on the 7th Dec about 1 am.... whee.... 14 hours later... I was with my caregroup watching Enchanted at Cathay...the movie was wonderfully enchanting to our spirits... the guys were super funny dancing away after the show...especially Joseph, who kept bursting into dreamy romantic songs unexpectedly throughout the day... It was a poignantly sweet NTU caregroup session at SMU that night... cos it was my officially last cg session with them...(BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN I'M NO LONGER A PART OF CG THOUGH!! Haha, I will be going Arrow Adventure Camp with them from the 18th - 21st Dec! Whoo hoo!! God help me. Lol) Hmm... the next time there's cg, it will clash with daregoup in future... but I really thank God for my caregroup. They are really a precious bunch of people where their presence are such a joy and blessing to me. Tim rocks as our cgl!! Whoo hoo...such an anointed lamer who cracks people up...haha in fact, come to think of it, I think our whole cg inherited the corny jokes from him...which he inherited from Pastor...lol :)

The next day, 8th Dec, Saturday... was DG outing!!! I was supposed to meet A2J (Addicted to Jesus), my new daregroup for an outing of fun right after they came back from Encounter Jesus Camp -> which I didn't get to go because it clashed with my exams. Was really sad and disappointed at first because I wanted the opportunity to get to really know them better...they will be with me till they graduated at Sec 4 (which is..about 3 years cos they will be Sec 2 next year) way to go A2J!!!! But praise the Lord for supernatural favour!!!

Initially, I wanted a quiet fellowshipping or go to settlers' cafe to hang out and have some good fun. But guess what??!! Of all places...they chose to go to the Escape Theme Park...which I've heard so much about..but never bothered/dared to go before. Haha, I was extremely horrified and my heart was pounding so badly as I went to sit at the rainbow and the viking boat. Amazingly, I enjoyed the adrenalin rush and was busy laughing the whole way through! Shaun, one of my youths, were screaming while covering his eyes: "Jesus, Jesus, Jesus!!!..O Lord, O Lord, O Lord!!!" The other youths were screaming their lungs out at the same time... it was terrible yet so enjoyable at the same time... really an oxymoron.

And now they come to the next part...this huge ride called the INVERTER. It actually hangs you upside down hundreds of metres above ground. Horrifying...and I was determined not to go up there... I didn't have the guts! Remember, it was my first time at the Escape. And horror of all horrors...dear Arena and Laura DRAGGED me... I mean...literally dragged me screaming and kicking all the way to the queue and blocked me from escaping...never knew that Arena was so strong...wahaha scary also...it was extremely funny...Tsu Ting and I were bemoaning the fact that because we were leaders, we had to set the example... haha then before the ride started, I was praying fervently...if I survived, God is good man...haha and praise be to Jesus, not only I survived, but I enjoyed it!!!! I even took the ride another time!! Wahaha, when the inverter hung upside down, looking at the sky was lovely. I thoroughly enjoyed the theme park..not to mention my 3 cheeky boys... all ganging up to drenched me with their water sprays... couldnt even open my eyes to drive my boat away... lol... praise Jesus for such supernatural bonding with A2J... I love them all!!! :)

More to come!!! Praise Daddy!!!

Thank you Daddy, for my very own precious beloved A2J!!!

I will never forget that smile.

2007-10-28T03:56:00.000-07:00

Today, after first service, I went to the ICU. Grandma was admitted yesterday due to unknown internal bleeding. She had to do an immediate operation and the doctors said that it was a 50-50 chance of survival rate as she had a long list of ailments. And grandma didnt want to do it. She told my uncle that she'd rather not spend anymore wasted time in the hospital. She wanted to get out of the hospital fast. But she did the operation in the end, and when I finally got to saw her today. I had a huge shock.

She looked so different. She used to always have a special smile reserved for us grandchildren but when we entered the ICU, giving her our warmest smiles...she just stared coldly at us. She had tubes all over, she couldn't speak, but what we saw in her eyes were frightening... eyes are window to the souls and we saw a pair of pained eyes..deviod of any hope. I saw a message in there that I refused to speak out.

Of course I was affected. My immediate instinct was to just get out of the room. I was so tempted to do anything, anything just to avoid her intense stare. I was quiet for a moment and was really at loss. But one thing is certain. God is faithful no matter what happens. I don't know why...but suddenly... I wasn't affected by the atmosphere the ICU portraying. I just felt an unnatural joy..supernaturally...and the fear just left.

I found myself walking to her bedside... and gave her this super huge warm smile. And just started chatting away... told her that all of us have remembering her in our prayers... and even shared with her that my church friends are all praying for her too...told her that everything will be alright. They were just simple words. But... I will never forget what happened.

She just gave this beautiful wide smile. Her eyes were smiling and her smile... it was the sweetest smile that I ever saw. Everyone in the room was stunned. I don't really remember what happen after that...but I just held her hand...it was so dry and wrinkled...and then my younger brother went up to her and stroked her hand too.

The love of God was so strongly felt in that room. Gosh... Daddy God is indeed so faithful. It is because of Him that we can become thermostats in that ICU. Everyone else's face were gloomy and anxious as they stared at her...but...wow... it was supernatural... what the love of God can do. I was just blown away. And because of how much my Daddy love my grandma too, I know that she will be totally healed and out of the hospital soon. Praise His name!

I will never forget that smile. Thank you Jesus.

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2007-09-26T23:00:00.000-07:00

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The Anointing Oil

2007-09-25T21:44:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I went to the leaders' meeting dragging my feet, feeling as if a huge dark cloud was above me. I felt suffocated; I felt drained... without realising why. My mistake was in keeping quiet and not taking authority over my situation. I am a King's kid! I am head over every area of my life. Should have recognise by the gloomy thoughts that I was being attack spiritually just before the meeting. Didn't want to go. But boy, am I so glad I went! It was so awesome, as usual. The worship was so restful in Daddy God's presence. There was peace. What Pastor Dan shared just uplifted me up once again. The fellowship at the end of it, although short, was powerful. I felt so blessed once again.

Just want to spend a few moments to meditate on something powerful that Pastor shared!! Following what he shared, I looked up the anointing oil on the internet and this is what I found, and it's so in line with what Pastor shared!!!

"Moreover the Lord spake unto Moses, saying, Take thou also unto thee principal spices, of pure myrrh five hundred shekels, and of sweet cinnamon half so much, even two hundred and fifty shekels, and of sweet calamus, two hundred and fifty shekels, and of cassia five hundred shekels, after the shekel of the sanctuary, and of oil olive an hin: And thou shalt make it an oil of holy ointment, an ointment compounded after the art of the apothecary, it shall be an holy anointing oil" (Exodus 30 v. 22-25).

Thus, the ingredients were four in number, blended together; their fragrance being borne along in the power of the oil.

The anointing oil is made up of 4 spices, the first symbolise the spirit of God, and the last symbolise the Holy Spirit. Both of five hundred shekels. The other two spices, cinnamon and calamus are of two hundred and fifty shekels. And if you were to realise, are exactly half of five hundred shekels. These two spices symbolise the spirit of Jesus himself, split at the cross for our sakes. All all these 4 spices are the symbol of the fullness of Godhead, all within the oil itself. Amazing! What power there is, in the secret of the anointing oil!

Everytime you anoint yourself, the spirit of God moves! And if you realised, in the bible, it is kings who are anointed. The oil represents favour; bondages are broken and the oil sets you apart for His glory! Gosh, what an awesome revelation.

Pastor shared a funny story about how the Pastor's son in the Tiberias Church actually sprinkled the oil on the flowers he sent to girl he like (the leading actress in Indonesia - a very beautiful actress with many suitors), and how he had so much favour! They are now an item. Haha!

Apply the oil on yourself before exams; sprinkle them on every area of lack, be it studies/ work. For students, apply the oil on our study tables, our chairs, and for working adults, apply the oil on our work tables.

There was another testimony shared by a couple to Pastor about their child. Everytime they carried their child to one particular corner of the house, the child will start crying uncontrollably. And the child's eyes will roll up. Pastor told them to apply the oil on the 4 corners of the house, and on the area itself. And after that, there was no more incident. Peace reigned.

And look at David, another example of someone who was anointed by the oil. Before the anointing, he only had good natural substances. But after he was anointed, he became supernatural. He defeated Goliath, he became a king who was living in the supernatural!

After all these truths were shared, I was utterly convinced at the treasure we have in the anointing oil. Went home and asked my mum for olive oil. Asked Daddy God to anoint the oil Himself. Haha, there was no delay man! Today I was busy having so much fun, applying the oil on my brother's study table, on his textbooks, on my study table, on the 4 corners of my parents' room, the 4 corners of my house... I was applying them everywhere, anointing them in my Daddy's name. Gosh.. it was cool! And the funny thing was, it seemed like the heavy atmosphere in my room just lifted. When my brother came back from school, he was commenting that the room feels different. Peaceful somehow. And he didn't even know what I did when he was at school today! Haha =) of course he was super happy when he heard what I shared.

*Happy sighs of relaxation* It's a glorious day indeed.

2007-09-16T16:10:00.000-07:00

Ok, this is going to be one super long post. No obligations to read, just wanted to pen down moments that I want to remember. lol, that is what happens when Shamane decides to really sit down and just blogged all the past happenings in her life. Her post just overflows. Hahaha, gosh just came back from Sunday first service. Can't wait for our new church building!!! It's going to be sooo cool... Really really so excited about sowing into it too!!! Woo hoo!

The spoon hunt:

Haha my little brother is super cute man. And super funny. We bought ice cream from carrefour today but couldn't eat it cos there wasn't a spoon. So my dear dad went to find spoons for us. He took so so so long... and we were just standing there and waiting... for almost ten minutes. Then my youngest brother couldn't take it anymore... for those who know Jedaiah, he is this super adorable chubby primary 5 year old kid. He told me: "Jie, I'm going to look for the spoon! And I will be much faster than dad!"

Before I could even react, he raced off. He can be really fast about things when it concerns the matters of his heart: food. lol and just as I saw him disappear back into carrefour, a few seconds later, my dad reappeared with the spoons. Now my mum was getting impatient cos we have to wait for my bro to come back. We waited and waited; I was already eating my ice cream while watching my brother's ice cream melt. No, actually my other brother, Jedidiah, was stealing some licks of his ice cream. haha and finally, we saw Jedaiah! There he is, racing along back to us... and lo and behold, his hands were empty! He was very disappointed, telling us he couldn't find any spoon...

Now, there wasn't much time left so my mum told him that he can only eat his ice cream when we get home... cos the taxi driver won't allow consumption of food in his taxi. Too bad, cos Jedaiah should have just waited patiently for my dad earlier. As we were walking to the taxi queue, we realised that actually Jedaiah was hiding something in his hands... he actually managed to get a spoon after all! But he didn't dare to show us... hahahaha and WHY? Because the only spoon that he managed to find, was a spatula!!! How to eat ice cream with such a tiny spoon? (Can we even call it a spoon?) hahaha I just cracked up and couldn't stop laughing man.. cos it was hilarious! Throughout the taxi ride home, all he could do to console himself was to lick his spatula...cos he couldn't eat his ice cream. Gosh, it was just sooo funny! Here are the photos I took of him; he refused to look at me. hahaha!

Saturday 15th Sept:

Yesterday during Dare, was the anointing service. Honestly, I was feeling super tired and just felt so incapable. Was wondering how am I able to anoint the youths when I'm not feeling righteous. Then I was reminded right at the spot that it's God's youths we are talking about. Whatever He wants to speak to them, He will get through to them no matter who is the vessel. So I told the Lord that I'm just going to avail myself to Him, and He better do the rest. Yup, I was just so tired that I couldn't be bothered with niceties. And gosh, Dare service was amazing. Pastor Dan had the coaches anoint the leaders first and then all the leaders went forth to anoint the youths. It was awesome, cos we didn't have to do much, God just took the lead. And there's power in the anointing oil; after David was anointed, he became supernatural, a boy of seventeen who killed Goliath. I really felt so blessed cos I had double portion. Pastor prayed for the students who are currently studying... for them to become supernatural in every area of their life. And I fall under the category of students! Then he also said a prayer over the leaders...and it dawned upon me that I am blessed with double portion man! Felt so refreshed and a revelation of Daddy's love embracing me all over again. Jesus is really so good. When we watched an excerpt of the Passion of Jesus... my whole body was just filled with an unnatural feeling... it was terrible, the death of Jesus.. and he persevered through the beatings... even in all the sensitive areas where they tore apart his flesh.. Jesus persevered, all for me. I just felt so loved, all over again. Sometimes, I really take him for granted.

Friday 14th Sept (past midnight):

Just came back from caregroup. Honestly, the Lord has been really good to me. The weeks just flew by and without realising it..no actually, I have been realising it, that the weeks are just flying by so quickly! And bang! it's 6 weeks of school, come and gone. Last year was my first year doing Computer Engineering, and gosh, what a trial. But amazingly, my second year begin very well. Even though the workload was supposedly heavier due to more core modules, but I actually find it rather enjoyable, and easy! (most of the times at least) Of course, when it comes to lab and assignments, I'm busy..and it takes quite a lot of work trying to accomplish them..mostly my programming, but other than that... hmm...surprisingly good.

Today I lost my rest though. Somewhere in the afternoon. Forgot about enjoyment and was instead just focusing on the pile that I have to accomplish. And was just frustrated because I wasn't hitting my target. Took about 5 hours trying to finish a certain program but to no avail. Went for caregroup feeling rather drained... confused. But Daddy God is good. Really reminded me about His rest, the finished work. It's stupid to strive man. Really stupid when God already gave you everything. What's the point? Just rest, enjoy. Feed on the word and when the evening comes, all we have to do is to just divide the spoils. Haha, felt happier after caregroup.

My eyes were opened though, by one thing Liru shared during cg. Realised that there's an area in my life where something important was neglected. It's the area of my studies... no, not the academic part. But my school life... other than the blessed lunch breaks with my different cg mates and fri cg in school...it's the part where I have to attend lectures and tutorials daily with the computer engineering cohort. There's enjoyment in the learning, but there seems no life in the company. Other than a few people where my good friend and I say hi to, the rest are just strangers. We don't even recognise most of our classmates and those that we see regularly, nobody acknowledges each other. What happened man? All of us are going to be in the same cohort for 4 years... yet, we behave like strangers. It's weird, and I start to despise the monotony of it all. And when Liru shared about the revival in her own school... I start to have this flicker of desire...it's like: hey! I want this to happen in my life too! It will definitely be more exciting! Jesus called us to be a light of this world and I want to be the light in this 'dark and gloomy' computer engineering world. Things can turn around man... and it will be a whole new school life for me where everyone is like family, warmth heating up the cold lecture theatre. Yes, that's what I want! And Tim said something that caught me... ask Daddy God for the right friends. And that night, after cg, I asked Daddy not just for right friends, but I declare to Daddy that yes, I'm ready. Use me because I avail myself. Put the right desires in me so that I will want to do the right thing. Guide me to love them. Just a smile to a new classmate will sow a seed in them. You never know. Gosh, cg is getting to be real exciting with the new freshies! Haha praise Jesus for NTU- C!

Tuesday 4th Sept:

Really enjoyed last last tuesday's leaders' meeting. Was thoroughly blessed that I wanted to blog immediately..but well...Shamane's a very happily busy person. Haha it was so cool la! For the first time, Pastor Dan did something different. Instead of meeting at Suntec, we met at Pine's Grove basketball court..in our sports attire at 7.30p.m. What a sight it was, to see all of the leaders there in sportswear..they all looked like they were overgrown kids having a PE class. lol. It was really awesome man..we played captain's ball, poison ball..but it was sooo fun! Man, some of the leaders were super childish...one coach (I shan't mention his name) actually climbed on the high fence and hang there like a monkey to avoid being caught!!! Hahaha poison ball was fun too...at one point in time, I threw a ball that actually hit Pastor Gabriel and got him out of the game! haha so funny manz... after the whole episode, the lights went out and then Pastor got all those who drove to ferry us to the nearby hawker centre for supper!! haha and the surprise birthday prank played by Pastor Dan was so mischievous! When the whole bunch of us crept up to Qamar and Esther with the cake, the people in the hawker centre looked on, wondering if we were going to have a gang fight cos we looked so intimidating! haha and the look on birthday victims' faces when they realised that they were not actually in deep trouble with Pastor, but that the joke was on them!

Father's Love Letter

2007-09-02T00:19:00.000-07:00

An intimate message from God to you.The words you are about to experience are true. They will change your life if you let them. For they come from the heart of God. He loves you. And He is the Father you have been looking for all your life. This is His love letter to you.

http://belovedshami.multiply.com/music/item/23/Fathers_Love_Letter

DG session...

2007-07-28T06:50:00.000-07:00

GOsH, i cAN't beLIEVe iT. i reALLy caN'T.

Coach Kev very kindly asked me to lead daregroup (aka caregroup) session today. I was like... WHAT?? when I first heard it. Cos' I led the dg session once before Adventure Camp in June, and I felt like I didn't do well at all... probably because I was so self conscious of self performance. And it's true when you are conscious of self... what you do become works... and you need grace (which is full of God, and none of self). That time, cos my overseer was there too, plus another adult leader... and I was SUPER DUPER conscious of myself... cos sooo many people was watching me as I shared for dg. I was wondering why I can't lead dg when there was lesser people, why when I have to lead, there has to be sooo many people around??!! So I felt like I did a pretty poor job of leading the session. Can you imagine, when I closed the prayer, I actually blanked out?? I was like... " Thank you, Daddy for such an awesome session today... erm... *silence*....*giggles from my dear youths*...then *whispers from Coach Joy to ignore them*....and I continued, thank you Daddy for...erm...*silence*..." See how bad it was??? I was super embarrassed. Haha come to think of it. But it all came about because I was really conscious of myself, conscious of ending the session with a good and powerful prayer, and just forgetting that a simple prayer, a simple one, right from your heart, for the youths, is the most powerful one.
And so, today was my 2nd opportunity in leading the dg session. And this time, I really spoke to the Lord about it. Told Him that I didn't want the youths to waste their saturday listening to me blubber, and leave the same as they came. And He showed me that He will speak to His beloveds through me. I don't have to worry at all. I don't. Just leave it to Him. And so there I was, right after the worship session, sometimes feeling abit fidgety, sometimes calm and feeling a peace... lol but when it came to the time to speak, (whoa, so dramatic isn't it? lol) I just went and was in the flow! The message was about being significant to God. Knowing that you are significant to the One who truely matters and you are everything to Him. I just spoke from the heart, and I could feel at some point, Daddy was speaking through me to them! It was so sweet, and at the same time, truely awesome. And it's true, when you let go, and just let God, wow. It's awesome. Of course, at some times, some self-consciousness tried to seep in, but then, it went away supernaturally again! Sitting there on the stool, facing 20 over youths, I knew by the grace of God, that they got something out of today's session. Not by what I said, but because of Daddy's presence, speaking into their lives. All glory to Jesus!

Reflecting...

2007-07-27T05:17:00.000-07:00

You know what? I've been super blessed this past weeks! Just came back from a mysterious getaway... (22nd - 25th July) lol shan't mention much about it except... THE FOOD!!! Food food glorious food! Gosh, the food was absolutely mouthwatering! And every single day is a free buffet... *mouth waters* Fresh oh-so-fresh prawns, fresh-oh-yes-fresh salmon, fresh-oh-my-fresh sushi... Not forgetting, thick and hot mushroom soup...YESss....heavenly. I thank Daddy for giving us tastebuds. They are indeed God's gifts to us. Lol.

Anyway, yes, have been wanting to blog about caregroup before I left for my mysterious trip. I really have to thank God about caregroup. Recently, my eyes have been opened to what a blessing caregroup is. Although one may not think how is caregroup related to their normal daily life, but it is! Whatever Tim Ang shared with our cg, somehow, somehow, it builds me up, and strengthens me for my walk with Jesus with my youths and very own daregroup. And it's very in line with what Jesus is telling me! For example, Daddy has been telling me the importance of spending more time with His word... but it was such a gentle reminder that I didn't exactly take such great notice of it. But the amazing thing was, a week later, Tim shared about having a personal relationship with Daddy God. Then, my overseer in Dare, Coach Julian, asked me a few days later: "Can I ask you a question, Shamane?" And the funny thing was, I knew what he wanted to ask! And I was correct! He asked me about my quiet time. Lol, God is really flowing the same direction from my 2 ministries! Dare and Arrow. And I realised how much they are intertwined. He speaks to me through them. And He wants me to get to know Him even more! That's why He's gently urging me to spend more time in the word. And caregroup has build me up, the fellowship with my cg members have also became so precious to me; gone were the past awkwardness, and now in place, was just the enjoyment of being with them.

As for serving in Dare, the thursday before cg (19th July) was a night I couldn't sleep early. I was just lying on my bed, thinking. And Daddy God started showing me how he had worked through Cindi and I. Because we availed ourselves, we were given the privilege of being used by God for his awesome plans. Events after events, starting from November 2006 all the way until now, I saw faces after faces, flashing before me. Faces of youths who has gotten to know Jesus through us. And as faces flashed before me, I started counting. And I counted all the way till 50. Wow. 50. And out of them, about 15 of them (and counting) accepted Jesus into their life. I was shocked and amazed at the numbers! I never knew it had gotten so many. And Daddy God just reminded me that as long as we avail ourselves, He will do a great work. Such grace. Totally undeserved favour.

And then He moved on and showed me something else. It became more of a revelation of how much my daregroup mean to me. Ever since I started serving, I saw them more of youths I have to be with, not want to be with. My being with them, and loving them, also became like a duty. And now I realised that my other leader, Coach Kev has been so understanding with me. Cos at that point of time, I haven't yet reached the stage where I share the same love with him for the youths. And just like that, on that very friday morning, it was like a drop of revelation and I just realised that not only my dg has grown so precious to me, but I realised that I love them. And I will not give them up for anything. And that revelation just blew me away. Gosh. And guess what, the next day was cg! And Tim shared about the difference between grace and works. It just blew me away. Wow. God is moving man!

Lastly, I just have to share this. A fresh testimony from the heavenly oven! I just finished giving tuition and usually I don't share with my students about Jesus. Cos I have this super cynical student who is a 'free-thinker', so I just adhere strictly to the lesson. But today was different, when tuition ended, they didn't leave. And they started talking about the Bermuda Triangle. And from there, they went on to spirits. I don't know how it started but it was just supernatural.

I have another student whom attends the same church as mine sometimes. Those extra times that I've spent with her, sowing seeds, seeds that I never even realised but then I saw the fruits today! She was readily adding her own testimonies even as I shared with the girl. It was awesome. And there was such a glow in this girl's eye. She had never believed and refused to hear a word about God, but right at that moment, you could see her. She was like a flower, opening up and brightening as she receives the light. When they left, I received an sms... and found out that she wanted to come to our church this sunday. I was exhilarated and so emotional.

How great is our God,

sing with me, how great is our God,

and all will see how great,

how great is our God.

A daily consciousness of Daddy's love...

2007-07-16T21:56:00.000-07:00

Blessed Bangkok!

2007-07-02T07:50:00.000-07:00

Aww... just came back from Bangkok! (20th-25th June) Had an awesome time meeting my baby cousin for the first time! He's only 5 months old, a thai born chinese. Reeeaalllyyy cuteee!!! Haha missed carrying him about and playing with him. When I first saw him, he looked like a thai prince. He was sleeping peacefully on a king-sized bed, wrapped in a bundle of warm blankets. He has such a fair complexion, and such cute red lips. And when he opened his eyes and laughed..gosh, what big eyes! And cute babyish giggle. Your heart just melts.

Oh, more about Bangkok... haha, I just love the Sunday Market! Even though it was super hot, but gosh, the wide variety of stuffs to see... it's just endless! Ranging from scented spa oils, furnitures, uniquely designed watches, handphone covers and accessories, handbags, clothes to (give a guess) real life rabbits (dressed in cute pink dresses) and dogs! Gosh, you just keep walking around and seeing soo many cheap and affordable stuffs! I had great fun! It was truely an awesome experience.

Had a wonderful time even though I travelled with my grandma, and my 3 aunties. Thank God my mum was there too! Haha, they were really amusing... somewhat childish at times, but all that laughing really made it enjoyable. I thank Daddy for such favour with my relatives. It's really important to rely on His supernatural favour when obstacles are faced. It's quite common that life isn't a smooth journey. It's complete with all the ups and down but I truely thank Daddy for His presence, and His going before me, that makes my down goes up. Praise Jesus!

P.S. Check out the scenery! I took this picture from the plane's window! Can see Bangkok below with the sea and the clouds above the land. It's so awesome! What a wonderful Creator! ^^

Happenings in a happening life!

2007-06-18T04:05:00.000-07:00

Whoa man. Right after 4th May... which was the end of my exams which signals my graduation from year 1, speaking of which, all glory to Jesus! Cos' I didn't fail a single module! My course has been such a challenge for the past year. Not only it wasn't my forte, but it was a very tiring major. Studying computer engineering was like encountering a foreign language. It was such a struggle and you won't believe the thoughts that race through my mind everytime I attempt to accomplish the task I was set to do. Everything seemed hopeless, and it didn't help that my seniors were telling me that the mathematics that I took was famous because many people failed while taking the subject. They said that it was the most difficult maths in all the 4 years. I really thank God for God. Without him, I honestly did not know how I survived. It's because of Jesus, that kept me going and I even grew to enjoy the subjects at times. Results were released during Adventure Camp itself.

Speaking of Adventure Camp, haha I JUST CAME BACK FROM DARE ADVENTURE CAMP!!! (8th - 11th June) WHOO HOO! Gosh, it was my first adventure camp. And what an experience indeed. At times, it was uncomfortable because it was like dying to flesh. The camp was so out of my comfort zone! To lead my group running for about 2.5 km to rescue our mascot (for someone like me, who failed 2.4km last time), to dive into the sauce pool full of oil, scrambled eggs, foul-smelling sauce and other gross contents... it was so not me! I was someone who detested outdoor camps, sweating it out under the sun... and I can't believe it, I really did enjoy the camp alot! There were times that I felt so inadequate to lead the group, but I kept learning, throughout the camp, that it was not about me... but all about God.

Nothing to do with me, but everything to do with Him.

During the first night of the camp, Pastor Daniel asked all the leaders to go out and pray for the youths, but I didn't go forth. To tell the truth, I was afraid. I did not know what to do, what to say, and how to pray for the youths. I felt condemned, but I thank God it was for awhile only. Cos' I was gently reminded by Daddy God that my job is just to avail myself to Daddy God and He will do the praying. He will put words of wisdom in my mouth and it's His anointing that will touch lives. All I have to do is to follow his leading. Wow. And guess what? I thought I missed the opportunity but nooo, Daddy is so good.

On the second night, Pastor Dan asked for the leaders to come up and he prayed a short but powerful prayer over every single one of us. He prayed for a new anointing to come over me. After I got up, he asked all of us to go among the youths, to lay hands on them with anointing oil. I was like, stunned... but remembered that I told God I want to follow his leading. So I did... and it was awesome. The first two precious girls that I prayed for were slained. I was shocked. I used to be hesitant about praying for people because I thought I couldn't. I had no confidence but now I realised it really has nothing to do with me or whatsoever. When you avail yourself, just let God flow in you. And you will witness such wonder. I moved on and prayed for a few more girls and I was amazed at what God spoke to them. One sobbed, totally touched by the anointing of God. God is so real man!

I was really touched by what the youths shared with me during section fellowshipping. The things they shared were astounding. Beverly, Sam, Rosabelle, Kezia, Jolyn and the rest... I was really amazed at their level of maturity and at what God was doing in their life. I actually teared at one part of their testimony sharing. It has to do with giving tuition to them right after my exams. Immediately after my exams was their exams, and that was why I didn't have much time to help them. Only about one to two days. And I was wondering even why am I even offering to help them. I didn't think that it will make much difference at all. But gosh, even now as I'm typing this, I remembered saying a prayer over the youths at the start of tuition. And God really did come true for us during the little time I had; Kezia and Rosabelle testified to that during the Adventure Camp. Rosabelle scored extremely high for those science questions stating that what I taught her came out! And Kezia told me before the tuition, she will fail her science. But after tuition, she scored for science because the topics that I went through actually came out! I was just wowed away by what God did.

Oya... then during the camp itself, my caregroup leader, Tim Ang, sent me an sms, asking me how I did for my exams. It was then that I realised EXAMS RESULTS WERE OUT! Strangely enough, I did not feel worried. I knew that since I was at camp, Jesus will take care of everything back at home. And when I went home to check my results, my coursemate told me that she failed 2 subjects and have to re-take again. I quickly checked my results and was thoroughly amazed. I passed every modules! Including the infamous maths module! And the funny thing was, the programming course (the one course that was my greatest challenge) actually scored higher than my other subjects that I was more fluent in! Gosh, never imagined the day that my Java would do better than my others! All glory to Jesus!

Really learnt so much that past month. In fact, about 2 weeks before the camp, I had the most tiring week in my life. One after another, youths came to me with all their problems. Problems that seemed so foreign to me because I realised now, that I've been so blessed by the Lord. Was really sheltered with a good family that I never fully appreciate because of their faults. No family is perfect. But if you hear the stories my youth told... you will shudder. Not the Dare Youths, but my other youths. The youths in Dare are really blessed and you can see the difference. Because they have God in their lives. But those street youths... my heart really goes out to them. During that week, I found myself so involved in their lives. Even hysterical parents came to find me in the middle of the night, and it got so bad that policemen even came to my house. What an experience. I really felt like I was living in a drama show. But through it all, I really grew alot. And I really truely thank God, from the bottom of my heart, for His faithful presence. I witnessed how terrible lost people are feeling without knowing the love of Jesus. They are living a life like hell on earth. Truely, I feel so blessed by Jesus. For without Him, I truely would not have survived.

Wow, as I looked back on what I have written, I realised that it's alot. Cos' I just didn't find the time to write all these that has been on my heart. But I have to, because I don't want to forget God's faithfulness to me. Haha, it's really like one event after another... cos' after all these, the camp... was DA ZONE concert! (15th June) Planetshakers from Australia came to town and so more than 7000 tickets were sold up! Almost 300 youths went up to receive Christ into their lives. And they will never be the same again. Because...

without Jesus, you have absolutely nothing at all.
It is with Jesus, that you have everything.

It was so good seeing all my ex-students again. They came for the concert and I had so much fun with them! Praise Jesus for them. Whoa, what a busy life man. But as with each step that I take, I learnt sooo much!

I thank you Jesus, for everything.
And for being my everything.

Updates of a busy but fulfilling life...

2007-03-25T01:55:00.000-07:00

Yes! I know, I know,
my blog seemed to be lifeless for like the longest time. Haha but that doesn't mean that the person itself is lifeless. It's because I've been

SUPER DUPER ULTRA
busy !!!
and that is why I just haven't been able to go and blog about it. lol but yup, decided that it's about time I write about what's been happening before I forget.

DARE 2 PLAY 3! 10th March Saturday

Ahhhh....such a memorable day man! After my mid-term test, I rushed all the way from boon lay to meet up with all the youths at clementi mrt station. Exactly 29 of my ex-students turned up! I was so excited to meet up with them. Most participated in the basket and soccer tournament. MGS was booked to host this event and it was such a sight to see 500 over youths flocking about to their various activites and games. (Eg. Street soccer, basketball, super duper fun mini mystery games which include: laser quest! human soccer! etc.)

OK, in the second picture: look at the green guy! Whoa, can anyone guess who is he? Haha as for the first & third picture: shows the boys watching the soccer match!

We have all kinds of different youths, from the basketball school teams to ordinary players who just want to have fun. It was awesome watching them play. The soccer gang even won the 2nd runner up!

And right at the end, we had an exhibition match where Pastor Dan and a few other leaders played soccer. Whew...really cool to watch the ball flying here and there. lol

Oh! I mustn't forget to mention the dinner. It was good! Yellow rice with fish, chicken, eggs...yums! The youths really enjoyed the dinner. And the best is yet to come!!!

THE ULTRA MEGA HYPER YOUTH CONCERT!

You enter the hall, and smoke fills the place. Laser lights flashing into the dark corners. A refreshing cool air surrounds you... (the air-conditioning la) Gosh, what an atmosphere! And the music begins. It was a blast! Lots of people were jumping and the some newcomers even got into the mood. The malay guys were doing cheeky dances to the music... lol but then, when it got to worship songs, the atmosphere shifted. You could feel it. Cos' it's God's presence, embracing everyone who was in the hall. I saw quite a few tearing. The song: I see Grace was being sung and it was most heartwarming to see how they were so touched by daddy God's love. Many seeds were sown into the youths' life that day. And more than 22 precious souls came into the kingdom of God. All glory to Jesus.

Servers' Appreciation Night 13th March Tuesday

It was such an exciting event for me because it's my first time privilege to be invited! It was on a Tuesday night and the entire Dare ministry was to have a dinner at Olio, Suntec City. Gosh, the company was so awesome. I was sitting with the adults leaders and just have such a fantastic time fellowshipping and just having fun. The food was yummylicious! Ooo... the impromptu performance was the most hilarious part. Jay was sabotaged by Pastor Dan to do his infamous indian dance, which he obliged, only after pulling Pastor Dan along to dance with him too! LOL! Pastor Dan dancing the indian dance was so funny! Later on, we had lots of other leaders 'saboed' to do some shaking to the music. Pastor Dan ended the night with a prayer over all of us. Gosh, it was such an awesome night. I really thank God for such a wonderful privilege. Felt so loved man.

Dare Group Session 24th March Saturday

Whoa... yesterday was our very first DG session for the year! Woooohoo! 19 turned up for DG at Sam's house. It was soo exciting cos we know and expect great things to happen during DG. DG will be such an awesome opportunity for the youths to come and be blessed together. So yesterday was the orientation day where the youths have to write down their expectations for DG. Some wrote: Commando Friends, Blessed friendships, get to know God better... I really believe that they will be so blessed by DG. And I thank God once again for this awesome privilege to serve and be so ultimately blessed!

Gosh... to be honest, the initial adaptation phase of balancing serving with studying wasn't easy in the beginning. All the confusion, questioning, challenges... I must say it seems to be a rather long journey but yet, it is all over so fast! Truely acceleration and I found that I've risen to another level. Yes, there will still be challenges here and there, (especially for my Computer Engineering studies) but I know that with God on my side, going ahead of me, it will be easy. Time given up is but only 10% and the 90% will be blessed. No one can ever outgive God! So I'm expecting breakthroughs in the area of my studies!!! Whee!!!

We serve a truely awesome God!

2007-01-21T01:50:00.000-08:00

" I don't believe.
What rubbish, where got such things?"
The boy had the most cynical expression.

" You are lying right?"

He had a sneer on his face.

And He was about to leave.

And Jesus' sweet presence swept across the room,

touching youths,

healing souls,

embracing him.

And He lingered on... his face softening. A tear slowly leak out. He quickly wiped it away, embarrassed to let anyone see it. It wasn't macho for a guy to cry. He continued listening to the pastor with wonder. He never knew that there was someone out there who really loved him. All along, he had thought that he was unwanted. He had always been told that he was a good for nothing. The first day of his life was spent in a prison ward. His mother gave birth to him in a maternity prison ward. He was put in school by his grandparents; he had tried his hardest but he knew that it was hopeless. He was too stupid. He had made up his mind to run away from home, quit school and try to get a job at some lousy restaurant.

He was only 13 years old.

And now, for the first time in his life, he was hearing about Jesus. That Jesus actually loves him so much that

Jesus came down to earth,

to die on the cross for his sins.

That because of this Jesus, he can now reign in life!

It was without any hesitancy, that when the pastor asked,

would you want to invite Jesus into your heart,

he raised his hand.

For the first time in his life, he was sure of his decision.

And Jesus embraced him tightly.

" I have been waiting so long.

It pains me so, to see you suffering.

I have come, that you might have life,

and life more abundantly."

I could have wept. What a beautiful story. A lost boy, who needed love so badly, finally found acceptance and unconditional love in Jesus' arms. And I thank God, for being such a wonderful and awesome God. I thank God, for allowing me to be a part of all these. This was a true story, similar characteristics of the boy can be found in many of the youths these days. They are lost, because they need Jesus. And they do not realise it. I just spoke to one of the youth. It was only a month ago since he invited Jesus into his life. He was the most difficult boy in the school; his parents have long given up hope on him. But Jesus did not. This tough infamous gangster was supposed to be retained in Normal Technical. But he suddenly found favour with the principal who promoted him to the next level. And he gave all glory to Jesus! Wow.

I saw another of my youth yesterday,

the very same boy who was born in the prison ward.

And he was praising the lord with such joy.

He was dancing and twirling about,

shouting out the name of Jesus.

What a glorious sight to behold

such uncontained and

unashamed joy.

And it's because of Jesus. Selah.

With a heart of thanksgiving...

2007-01-01T00:32:00.000-08:00

It was dark. And she was so scared. It was after a long moment that she dared to approach the windows... but the blinds, they hid the windows from her reach, intimidating her with their forbidden mystery. She knows not what lies behind the blinds, nor what fortunes or misfortunes lies beyond those windows if opened. All her life, her greatest desire had been to break free of this bondage... but she could not. It was beyond her ability to open those windows. Thus was such a cruel life she led, never venturing beyond the windows, never lifting a finger to attempt to open the windows. The question is:
did she dare to do so now?
She did not dare.
With a heart's cry, she called out for Jesus. And He came. Lifted her up in his arms, opened the window and soared out... towards the sun.

2006 - Year of Acceleration

Looking back, I realised that I have crossed many milestones. It was only a year ago when I was so filled with insecurities. I was shy, tremendously conscious and affected by what people thought of me. It was a horrible bondage, to be tied to people's view of your character. Having a low self-esteem prevented me from truely enjoying life. One can never fully go out with

friends and just have real fun. No. A person who is conscious of oneself will always be dwelling on imaginary scenarios that seemed to be happening but in actual fact, unrealistic. I wanted to be set free! It was my prayer to the Lord.

It starts with heart transformation, then behaviour modification.

A prayer was all it took.

And the breakthrough came.

In the form of many journeys; challenges faced that seemed to be giants actually were bread.

I recall all the journeys that took me across the year 2006.

From graduating,

becoming a relief teacher to 7 classes for 7 months,

How can someone who was so shy and total lacking in self-confidence able to teach a class of 40 kids and even enjoy it so thoroughly?

It can only be God.

being involved in the church's Psalmist Group where I learn key values about worship & where my desire to play a guitar came to reality,

How can someone who dislikes making new friends able to go join a new group where the entire group are from another University?

It can only be God.

serving in Campus Creative Unit Dance Ministry & performing hip-hop contemporary dance during Praise&Worship concert at Fort Canning Park,
How can someone with so much insecurities able to dance hip-hop on stage? Up to this day, I remain amazed.

It can only be God.

to serving in DARE Ministry during EJ Camp2...

Excuse me, but Dare Ministry is the super ra-ra, enthusiastic, fun-loving youth ministry...

and you are the boring person who likes to stay home and slack...

how can you survive down there?

Haha! God raised me to a higher level! Without realising it, I have changed.

From GLORY to GLORY.

I was a new ME. God had been there all the while,

right beside me. Watching over me, guiding me, and loving me.

He had been my strength, providing me with the desire to change, to get involved, and then giving me the ability!

I had been a christian since I was little. And I have struggled with all these insecurities while growing up. There's this desire to serve. But... just never really got to it. Was lazy and scared of commitment. But I have learnt not to despise the desire. No matter how small it is. Cos' God works by planting a desire in my heart, and sometimes I doubt if it's really God... cos I do not have the ability to fulfill my own desire! And then he provides the ability. Isn't God amazing? He uses my own weakness to magnify Him! Gosh. It's really humbling to the soul. I mean... I have so many weaknesses. And yet He chose me, to be part of His great plans. Wow. I repeat, wow.

Stepping out of your comfort zone is never easy.

But each time you step out, let God hold on to your hand, and you will

Rise

To A Higher Level.

Indeed 2006 has been a year of acceleration, and dreams fulfilled.

I never believed. Because I could not believe that it was that easy.

Just ASK God,

and you will receive.

There's nothing that I had to do. All I learnt during this journey was to let go,

and let God.

3 Anointed Camps in a row!!!

2006-12-21T22:55:00.000-08:00

Whoa... so much has happened in just this month. I feel like I am soaring on the eagle's wings...flying past time into a higher level each time. First, there was the Encounter Jesus camp(so blessed to have the opportunity to serve), then there was my family camp, and last of all, History Makers Camp! Gosh... there's just so much to share!!! Let's start with the first camp...lol

EJ Camp (5th - 8th Dec)
I went there with a spirit of serving. I came back with a spirit of having received. It was awesome. Cos' the first day was self-effort as I found myself trying to ra-ra the kids and to get them to bond. How tiring it turned out to be. I was so uncomfortable at the fact that it was so not me at all. It was really encouraging to be reminded again by Pastor Daniel through Coach Julian that when God anoints, He gives the grace to carry you through. It's all of God, and none of me. Whew, what a burden that was lifted! It's not me that will bond the kids together, but God who will make sure that they have a great time at church! I don't have to try. (And it was really God cos Deaconess Karen prayed for me during the ministering and this was the word she said: "Don't try. Just be." Amazing. The holy spirit is so accurate! she don't even know me!)
Lol, it was amazing what I could do the next day. I just had fun leading and playing with all those youths! I found myself jumping and dancing, cheering the group on like one siao person and just having so much fun! I was being myself, yet it was a whole new me! God has supernaturally raise me up a higher level! Gosh. In one of the games, I could even jump into the sea, and then run back to the beach to roll about in the sand! Now, for those who know me, will know that it was totally God! In the past, I absolutely detest outdoors and water games. I will just flee!!! hahaha so it's really awesome that I enjoyed myself thoroughly with the youths.
God is really moving and exploding in the youth ministry. God is tangible. I could literally see him; his presence swept across youths, embracing each and everyone of them. So many were slain in the presence of the lord; so many were sobbing as he touched them one by one. It was awesome being a part of this great work, watching as the leaders lay their hands on the youths, hearing youths as young as primary 6 sharing how God touched them and impacted their lives. No one left the camp being the same. All were tremendously transformed. Wow. Jesus is really so good.

Family Camp (12th - 14th)
I experienced so many breakthroughs during the EJ camp. And it was overflowing during my family camp. We went Malacca. There's this one thing I must share. I used to have a phobia about travelling overseas. I will always fall sick on the very first day. I will sneeze non-stop and have red eyes that waters excessively; I just felt like dying. I could never enjoy myself thoroughly when I go overseas. And I have this stupid weird thing about sleeping in hotel beds. No matter how clean the hotel is, I was fearful about the 'dust' that is all around me. I will go to bed dressed in socks, long pants, jacket, gloves and hood so I will be totally covered and not an inch of my body will touch the bed. Then I wrap my arms over my body and remain as still as a corpse the entire night. Hahaha scary huh? Well, what a weird bondage. Oh! Then I will also not get to sleep peacefully cos I will keep waking up throughout the night to blow my nose. Gosh. AND I AM SO GLAD THAT DURING THE EJ CAMP, my bondage was broken! For the first time in years, I could go to all the camps, feeling totally healthy, not sick and sleep peacefully! (God gives his beloved sound sleep! Amen!) And I didn't have to even use a sweater or gloves! I could roll about in the bed without worrying if any inch of my skin is touching the bed! What freedom! LOL, I really enjoyed the holiday with my family. It was just so blessed. Haha =)

My 2 younger brothers!

HM6 (18th - 21st)
This camp was for the youths from around 16 - 25. It was really double portion cos I could go for 2 different church camp in a row! During the EJ camp, I received a shepherd's portion and during this camp, I received a sheep's portion! Isn't God good? Wow. I just received REST. And so much peace, so much enjoyment worshipping Him in His presence. I felt so free, just so happy. I could dance (literally dance! Without caring the people beside me or how 'silly' I looked) and jump around praising Him. There was once I even experienced a slow tender dance with my lord Jesus! It was awesome. Will share more in the next entry... lol AHHHH!!! Jesus is just sooo good, sooo awesome, sooo loving, sooo.....WOW!!!

Loving Jesus more everyday,
Shamane

Exams are finally over!

2006-12-01T08:14:00.000-08:00

Whoa... my exams are officially over today. 1st December...Woo hoo! Haha finally free to blog. Sooo much have happened in the past month. I am at loss at where to start. Lol. Well...since I can't think of what to write now, will just post the lyrics of my present favourite song! Haha

The Stand

Joel Houston (Hillsong United)

Verse 1:

You stood before creation
eternity in Your hand
You spoke the earth into motion
My soul now to stand

Verse 2:
You stood before my failure
And carried the cross for my shame
My sin weighed upon Your shoulders
My soul now to stand

PreChorus:

So what can I say
And what could I do
But offer this heart O God
Completely to You

Verse 3:

So I'll walk upon salvation
Your Spirit alive in me
This life to declare Your promise
My soul now to stand

Chorus:

So I'll stand
With arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the One who gave it all
I'll stand
My soul Lord to You surrendered
all i am is yours

Hillsong United!

2006-10-29T20:04:00.000-08:00

WHOA! Everyone, take out your pens and calendars! Mark down this day:

Saturday 25th November, 7p.m!

Hillsong United Youth Band, YES, the famous Hillsong are coming down to Singapore, all the way from Australia! And of all places, they are coming to my church this November! Wooo!!! Praise God! This once in a lifetime concert will rock your shoes off! Who wants free tickets? Loads of people are rushing to snap up the tickets so you all gotta confirm with me asap! Lol...oh, and btw, this is only for the youths. Blessed are you!

Third Day Generation

2006-10-22T04:32:00.000-07:00

OMG. God is indeed doing such awesome work! He's bringing REVIVAL in the youth's lives. He will start with the most unexpected... and when the glory of God falls upon them...everyone will marvel at such transformation... what charisma... they will say... and they will agree, that it can only be God. Isn't that awesome? I am so excited at what God is doing in my life. He has blessed me, using me in His great plans, letting me behold His heart for the hopeless. He has given me such sympathy, such love, a supernatural desire to help youths. There are many, who wanders about in life, trying desperately to find fulfilment in the world. They try so hard... but to no avail.

***

smoking

hanging out with gangs everyday till late at night

walking around aimlessly

dancing madly to a monotonous beat at the disco

drinking

chasing after different girls/boys

fighting

quarreling with their parents

struggling with their studies

bored with life

using drugs to escape from reality

***

These are the youths who tried so hard to find love. But in all the wrong places. In the end, all they had, was a sense of utter loneliness, feeling like a failure....and just so empty. There are many youths who are facing such problems. The youths that I am describing may, in fact be you, or your friend, or classmates. Don't you sometimes feel so lonely? So empty? So...desperate? Longing for something but you do not know what?

I know. You need Jesus. He is the answer. He is the only one who can give you such love. He is the only one who can give you exactly what you need. You need Him.

Jesus is the only God you know who came down, just to die for you, TO SAVE YOU and exchanged places with you at the cross. You were supposed to die on that cross. Yet, Jesus did it for you. He bore your stripes...so that you would never need to suffer pain or diseases again. He shed all his blood, so that you would be forgiven of all your sins. Nails were pierced right through his hands; it wasn't nails that hung him to the cross. It was His love for you, that hung him to the cross. Why? So that now, you are a King's kid. You can call God your father. You have every right to the blessings in your Father's kingdom. And your father is a God! The most powerful creator. What authority you have! And it's all because of Jesus. He loves you so much. What do you have to lose? Just call on Jesus. He is the only faithful one, who never fails you. He always answers. Cos' He is always waiting for you to call. How much He love you. Just believe. And accept His love.

I did before. And have never regretted it since. What a blessed and victorious life I have. Praise the Lord, for He is good! Our God is an awesome God!

A prayer for my students...

2006-09-28T23:12:00.000-07:00

I know it's been a busy month for most. What's with studying for the exams and all... so I would like to say a little prayer for all you people... especially for those who knows that Jesus is their Saviour =)

Dear Jesus, I know all these precious ones who have been studying so hard are your beloveds. You love them so much that you came down just to die for them on the cross. You have already won victory for them and they are now more than conquerors. I pray that they will have a greater revelation of your love for them. Teach them not to worry but to give you all their burdens. I ask for your shalom peace be upon them as they enter their classrooms to sit for their various papers.

Thank you Jesus!

In Jesus' name,

I pray,

Amen! =)

Now rejoice! For victory is yours! Just have fun doing the papers, knowing that the results have already been settled by the Lord. He is with you while you sit for your papers. =D

It's been a while...

2006-09-22T05:31:00.000-07:00

Whoa...it's been a while since I last blogged...haha and LOTS have happened.... Too much....haha yup been very busy with Uni life. Really enjoyed going for lectures and doing tutorials. Lol. All glory to God for helping me to adjust to this new phase. I thank God for blessing me with such an awesome friend. Haha XD

Oh, and it's really funny. On my way home from Uni, I will always have to pass by the bus stop which is at Queenstown Mrt Station. And I will always happen to see lots of queenstownians in the buses...haha and you guys never seem to see me.

Hmm...abit reluctant to write more about my personal life ... cos it's quite embarrassing...Yes...I have been quite confused lately.

Ok, nevermind. Skipping that part, let me go into another interesting part of my life...coming this September 30th, I will be performing at Fort Canning an opening dance item for my church Praise & Worship Concert. It has a Chronicles of Narnia theme....snow and glitters everywhere... and it's a hip-hop dance! Haha, yes. It will be my first time dancing on the stage! And I know all my friends can't wait to see me groove to a hip-hop beat. lol...it's truely supernatural. I have always had this secret desire to dance and God has now given me this ability to dance for Him! I really enjoy all the dance practices. It's been such a blessing, all my dance sisters and the free work out! Haha

I thank God for this opportunity to learn new stuffs and gain new experiences.
Hugs to everyone!

2006-09-02T06:17:00.000-07:00

In case you guys are wondering... WHAT HAPPENED TO MY PREVIOUS BLOG? Well, there was this person claiming he was a teacher from MOE, and started harrassing the kids tagging on my blog. I must say, that I was really touched to read all of my students' reply to this prankster. They stood up for me and most of their answers were so matured. I am so proud of them. Praise God that the guy did not interfere anymore! However, I still decided to close down the blog. Lol, I just feel uncomfortable if I continue to post there. So yup, here's my new blog! And I'm transferring all my previous posts here. Cheers!

*Sunday, August 20, 2006*

Last Saturday was so fun! My brother and I had lunch with 6 sec 1s at Suntec City, then we headed over to my youth church called DARE. DARE is New Creation's Church youth service for secondary school kids. They come together on a Saturday twice a month to have fun and just to know more about God. Four other sec 2s (sadly, I did not manage to take a photo with them) joined us in time for the worship where there is this very cool band with drummers, electric guitars, keyboard and singers. It was a blast, seeing all those super hyperactive and enthusiastic kids jumping to the music, and singing along to the fast or slow songs. The youth pastor is this very hilarious and happening cool dude. Get this. He was an ex-gangster! Lol, if you see him now, you will be amazed at how much he was transformed by God's love. He still looks like a gangster with dyed hair and all, but he has this charisma about him that makes everyone wants to be like him. It's just the glory of God upon him. The kids loved him because he's very comical. Those who did not went missed out on all the fun! Lol, after that, the remaining of us went to eat dinner at Sakae Sushi. Yummy! Really enjoyed myself with all of them and I thank God for such a wonderful time.

*Saturday, August 19, 2006*

19th August 2006. The day I will always remember. 2 precious souls were saved!!! Welcome, my dear brothers. The kingdom is yours. What awesome authority that is! Rejoice with me, everyone! It was awesome witnessing Daddy God at work, touching hearts, healing souls and impacting lives. I could have wept at the immense love of Daddy God. His love for us is so VAST, so DEEP, beyond humans' understanding. His love for us is eternal.

What a Saviour, what a friend we have in Jesus. Just run to him. He catches us. He waits to embrace us, and pours out all his kingdom's blessings. What can He not withold from us? After all... His love for us is so great, that He could send His one and only and most precious son, to die on the cross - so that we could be forgiven of all our sins, and have eternal life. Now, who on earth will die for you? Nobody! Not your parents, no matter how much they love you, not your best friends... Nobody will be willing or able to go through the worst torture in history, so that we can now live a blessed life.

Jesus bore all 39 stripes on his back... Do you know how the Roman soldiers whipped Him? It's not the same as caning. In the past, their whips are called the Cat of Nine Tails. One whip has nine smaller whips which will attached themselves to the body. Each whips have broken glasses, nails which will hook themselves into the body. When the soldier pulls out the whip, all the flesh would be torn out too. RIPPED from the bones. Imagine enduring it for 39 times! He was battered beyond recognition. Jesus felt the pain just like any other ordinary man. God had to come down as a man, so that He can redeem man from sins.

Jesus could have just stopped it any time. He could have decided that no, He had enough. Just by a snap of the fingers, the angels could have brought Him back to heaven. And then the world will be lost. But no. He kept thinking of us. His love for us made Him endure the 39 strokes. The 39 stripes represent the 39 types of diseases in the world. That is why, by His stripes, we are now healed. This is one of the gifts He has given unto us. I am now able to claim healing over my body and no diseases can touch me.

Just believe. God is so good! And I have only just begun on His goodness. lol. There is more to this love story. Jesus' journey to the cross... Imagine the cross on your back. Where there is no skin...just blood and bones. The cross was made out of wood, roughly cut out. Now, if a tiny wood splinters and your finger accidentally touches it... your finger bleeds. And it is very painful. Now visualise a huge heavy cross, with many rough edges and large splinters, rubbing against your sore back, or what's left of it. Remember His back has just bore 39 stripes! Oh my gosh. The AGONY.

And so He carried the cross. Only love for you made Him persevere. Only the thought of you was able to nail Him to the cross. NAILS...piercing through his whole hand. It was love that held Him to the cross. What an awesome God He is. A God of love. He died for our sins and after 3 days, He rose again, declaring our victory! Now He reigns in heaven, preparing a place for us. And He lives in us through the Holy Spirit.

Yes, Jesus is my dearest friend. I love Him and He is always so faithful to me. Do you want to know my best friend? Do you want to know who is my boyfriend? He is one cool hunky dude. Extremely handsome. Come on, He created us. Including those very good-looking pop stars you see on MTV. Lol, yes. You've guessed it! Jesus is my boyfriend, the most handsome, the most generous lover of them all. Do you want to know this Jesus better? He wants to. He died for you. Just invite Him into your life and your life will never be the same again. Trust me. I invited Him once and I had a friend for life. What is there to lose out?

For God so loved the world,

that He sent His one and only Son (Jesus Christ),

that whoever believes in Him,

shall not perish but have eternal life!

John 3:16

*Wednesday, August 16, 2006*

Yay! Today I was able to go back to relief a chinese teacher (even though my chinese is like...not good XP). It was really God-incidental. Cos' I was given another opportunity to say 'Hi' to all my 7 classes. It was so fun seeing all of them again! I was really quite amused and overwhelmed when I was in 1A today. I was just chatting and catching up with some kids in the class when in rushed all those girls and boys from 1C. They just streamed into 1A to say hi! Was really touched. Heard that some of them told their teacher that they wanted to go toilet as their excuse to leave class. *Naughty naughty* haha some of the girls also just spontaneously hugged me. Was quite overwhelmed actually. =P

*Saturday, August 12, 2006*

REJOICE!
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It's an awesome day.
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Just felt so loved by Daddy God!
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Was prayed for by Coach Angie.
And just felt the love of God embracing me...
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Nothing much to say today except...
I love you, Jesus!

*Thursday, August 10, 2006*

Happy 41st Birthday Singapore! Wow I gotta thank the Lord for this opportunity to go with my 2 younger brothers to celebrate National Day! This year was so fun! The best! Everyone was in the spirit. It was a sea of red speckled with some white. Awesome. The funpack was so cool too. There was a nokia phone torch light (looks so real) with a very cute but powerful fan. Lots of yummy food and drinks all packed nicely into the red bag. There were other goodies too... lol. Time seemed to pass so fast... it didn't seem as boring when you are right on the scene. For a while, we were busy with our funpack, snapping photos here and there... it was really exciting. Ahh...then... FIREWORKS! Right above our heads! They gave us transparent umbrellas to shield us. The fireworks seemed to dance according to the music. Amazing and simply beautiful. Loved the fireworks...
Thank you Jesus, for this wonderful time with my brothers. We had the time of our lives.

*Wednesday, August 09, 2006*

Thank You Jesus. Thank You so much.
Monday was a bad day. First day at the University, knowing no one in my faculty. It was horrid, the feeling of loneliness. It was worst when the campus is so huge and so unfamiliar. Knowing no one, knowing nothing... I felt like I was a tadpole dropped in the humongous ocean, forced to find my own way, with no one to ask for help.
Yet God was good. He was there for me to turn to. I turned to Him for help and He brought friends, good fellow christian brothers and sisters (Anil, Pris and Li Ru) to me during my breaks. I did not have to eat alone. They encouraged me and their presence alone was absolutely refreshing.
I had an incident with a weird guy though. This stranger introduced himself, and stuck with me throughout the whole day! From 8.30am to 5.30pm! I felt so uncomfortable. We did talk to each other but by the end of the day, I just felt a sense of dread... because of him. Did not want to see him ever again. I will not elaborate why.
So thus started my second day in school... Tuesday. Did not want to go to school... Lol... just like any normal students... wanted to skip school! Gosh... but I told Daddy God... I need Him. I asked Him to make it a better day. Let God choose friends for me. I will not go about seeking for friends because I would not know who are good and who are not. God knows best and He will bring me the right people and chase away the 'bad' people. I thank God that the weird guy was eliminated. Haha! And I felt so happy yesterday. I just felt the freedom and the joy in attending lectures alone. Then when I was not seeking friends, but just enjoying Daddy God's presence, He sent a girl friend to me! She happened to have almost the same timetable and I was so grateful to God for that.
The day ended with me meeting another church leader (Agnes) in the school and I really thank God for her. She spent more than an hour chatting with me, encouraging me, and showing me around the huge campus. University is not like Junior Colleges or Secondary Schools. You have to print out lecture notes and tutorials yourself, ahead of the lesson. Where to print, how to access it to print, where to collect...etc. you have to do it all yourself. And you would not know where on the website to get the notes, it was just too complicated! You also will not know what time, where and when is your lessons. Can you believe it? Not even knowing your own timetable? You have to search for it...gosh. I am so glad for Jesus. Without Him, I would not have survived. He sent me Agnes and other christian seniors who taught me all these. I ended the day feeling so loved by Daddy God. The campus does not seem so intimidatingly huge and unfamiliar anymore. I just felt so loved.
Thank You Jesus. Thank You so much, for loving me.

*Saturday, August 05, 2006*

Argh!!! Thought I could go and visit my students during the NDP celebration BUT just found out my new timetable! I have lessons and by the time I am free, it will be too late to join all of them! ='( Sigh...Ok, enough of that. Stepping out of a previous phase and into a new phase in life is always difficult. So many changes. From being a teacher and teaching and imparting knowledge, to learning and being a student again. You see, teachers are human beings. Haha, let us all embark on our learning journey together. I will share with you guys my ups and downs and hope that you all will do the same with me.
Yup, just received my new timetable. Some days are so packed! Like lectures start at 8.30 am and end at 5.30 pm. Yet some days are great, from 9.30 am to 12.30 pm. Have to make new friends too. Everyone is new to this. Cannot comment much about this new life of mine yet EXCEPT that I claim it GOOD and FANTASTIC in Jesus' name! It will begin on Monday! =D
Really became a stronger character as I have learnt much stepping out of my comfort zone. Lol, this teaching career has also strengthened me and taught me much. Learnt how to deal with challenges (Oh man, definitely thank God for God in those circumstances, for without Him, how to enjoy life? He always turns things around for my benefit!) and become a more confident person. Truely, I have learnt that He is always faithful and His supernatural favour and grace is always abundant. I have seen that it is because of Him that I have been transformed from glory to glory. Thank you Jesus!

*Wednesday, August 02, 2006*

Today was my first day not teaching after so many months. When I woke up this morning, I felt like a part of me was missing... my students. I found myself thinking about them continuously, going through past memories over and over again repeatedly. I really missed them so bad. How not to feel that something is missing when they have been a part of your life for more than half a year? There's this bond, this connection with the students and... when I woke up from those memories, there were tears in my eyes. I will come back. To see them all again. And if there are any future class outings, I will definitely join them!
Missing my kids...

*Tuesday, August 01, 2006*

Oh my gosh. I am really so touched by what 1A did for me. They organised a farewell party for me after school. A few girls ( I think Shu Juan and Peiling they all) rushed off to buy cups, plates, softdrinks and ordered pizza for the party. Valerie rushed back to her home to try and print out photos to give me together with the class card. So sweet! Speaking of the card, I was so moved by what the whole class wrote for me.... It was too touching. What the students wrote, really made it more painful to leave them. Then not only that, JunTing, Jereme and Guo Hong gave me a little gift of appreciation. It really pulled at my heartstrings to know how much that students really appreciate their teachers. Gosh... THANK YOU SO MUCH 1A. Really love you guys alot. You guys are sooo fun, so loving, and so sweet. Will miss you guys so much. And I thank God with all of my heart, for the opportunity to know you guys. Stay wonderful always!
Love, Shamane
P.S Hopefully, tomorrow I will be free to do a ' Thank You' post for all those sweet little darlings who wrote me a card. God bless you!

*Friday, July 28, 2006*

What a day today was. My last day at Queenstown Secondary School. Really felt so touched and overwhelmed by all my classes. Felt so blessed to have known them, felt so honoured to have befriended them, and felt so loved by God because of them. I thank Daddy God for blessing me with such an experience. In the beginning 3rd January 2006, I remembered feeling so worried about my first day of teaching. Yet, God has been so faithful, continuously showing me that it will be Christ in me teaching, not me myself teaching. And what supernatural favour there was! Now, it hurts to leave all these little darlings. Grown so attached to them. Really enjoyed chatting with all of the kids. Thank you for all your cheers, your well-wishes, your little cards, and your love. Just want to shout out to 1A, 1B, 1C, 1D, 1H, 2B, 2D and all those classes that I have taught before... I will miss you guys and will definitely come back in future. Love you guys, be good and always aim for the best!!! Do it not for me, but for yourselves.

With lots of love, Shamane

P.S I thank God for each and everyone of you.

*Saturday, January 21, 2006*

What Is Love?

Love led Him to create me.

Love was grieved when sin came in,

stood between Love and me.

Love ached at my impending doom,

Love longed to hold me close,

and so Love came down.

Silently, Love bore my pain, my stripes.

It was not nails that held Him to the cross,

It was Love that nailed Him there.

Love only thought of me;

Love exchanged places with me,

and was glad that I would be saved.

Love was so unselfish,

Love was so self-sacrificial,

Love died for me.

Love did not demand my heart,

Love asked for nothing,

Love only waits with open arms.

What is Love?

Love is Jesus Christ, the son of the Living God.

*Thursday, December 08, 2005*

Thank you Daddy God for such a blessed time of fellowshipping with my brothers and sisters these 2 days. Been away with my caregroup for a time of sharing, praise and worship and simply having a blast at the Chalet. It was an awesome experience, truely God's presence was felt all the time. I could really go on and on, but I just want to thank Daddy God for His love. Yesterday after praise and worship, Jared felt a leading to pray for all the December babies. Everyone gathered around me and Gilbert, forming a circle. It was right after praise and worship and the presence of God still lingers. Everyone started praying in tongues, and then Hsien Zhuan started the ball rolling. One by one, brother Jonathan, Jared, Shinglam, Clarence, Jingtian, Pammie, Priscilla, Jo, Clara, Pris Yong, Ruth, Elson and lastly Gilbert; they thanked God for me and proclaimed blessings over my life. During the praying session, I felt Daddy God's love so evident, radiating towards me from all my precious brothers and sisters. Thank you Daddy for your love. I know that you will always be with me, guiding me and carrying me. I pray that I will always be conscious of your love. Cos' it's by your love, that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. I have no fear, cos' perfect love cast out all fear. Praise the Lord!

*Sunday, November 20, 2005*

It's amazing how much I've learnt and matured in my walk with Daddy God during the examinations. It's only when I looked back, that I've realised that unconsciously, God has always been working in my life, moulding me to be in His likeness! I have much to be thankful for during the exams period. Honestly, I don't know where to begin! There's just so much to be said! Haha, and of course, I haven't been online in ages. Haha =P Okie, I shall start listing all of them:1. I thank Daddy God for loving me so much! If Jesus never died to save me... I shudder to think of what will definitely befall me. It is because of Jesus' blood that I am redeemed and through salvation, I have prosperity, blessings and wholeness! And I truely thank God for his love. For I have come to the realisation that without Him, I have nothing.
It is with Him that I have everything. He's my everything.
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2. When you have come to the end of yourself, when no one else can help you, in the midst of despair and hopelessness, it is when you long for HOPE itself. And I thank God that because of Him, I have Hope. And Hope in Daddy God is powerful. Cos' Daddy is always faithful.
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3. I thought this was awesome.
Mercy = Not having what you deserve
Grace = Having what you don't deserve
I thank God for His Grace and Mercy.
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4. Thank you Daddy for your revelations. Thank you for fighting all my battles for me and giving me victory! It is because of you that I am more than a conqueror. It is because of you that I don't have to strive for my results. You have already gotten it for me. And all I gotta do is to REST, and enjoy my victory! Oh man, really feels like a princess! Praise Daddy God, my King! I'm so glad that I really learn to apply what I have learnt during Pastor Prince's teachings. Hearing the word everyday really nourish my soul and benefit my physical body! Somehow, (even though this may seem unbelivable) I enjoyed studying! Studying was fun, even when I could not meet my target, even when exams were the next day and I was not prepared. Studying became fun when I studied not out of stress to get my results, but out of enjoyment knowing that my results were already there! What a breakthrough! Praise the Lord!
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5. I thank God that I am in New Creation Church! What power there is in the foolishness of preaching! Praise God for my beloved Pastor Prince! Knowing that I have so much power and authority just in my words is awesome! Whatever lies the devil may say is of no revelance and of no harm, cos as a king priest, whatever I say will settle all controvesies! And as a King, there is power is my words. The mouth of the righteous is a fountain of life! (Proverbs 10: 11) I thank God that because of Jesus, I am the righteousness of God in Christ! WOO HOO!
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6. There are simply too many things to thank God for. But I shall end tonight with this. I thank God for such supernatural favour He has bestowed upon me. I thank God for His gift of kingly friendships. I thank God for such covenant brothers and sisters in Christ; we will mature and grow together in our walk with God, playing a part in Daddy God's divine plan in each other lives.
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Thank you Daddy God for such awesome love.
I am greatly humbled by your grace, cos' it's really undeserved favour.
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Lots of Love, Daddy's Beloved, Shamane!

*Tuesday, August 30, 2005*

It is not about what we know,Our wisdom is limited.It is about what Jesus knows,His wisdom is all encompassing.And He is in us, the Hope of Glory!Oh what power and authority we have!Let the redeemed of the Lord say so.We reign as Kings,His favour all over us.Know this truth,and the Holy Spirit bears witness.Woo hoo! Watch out for His POWER!It's a happy happy day! :)Praise the Lord!

*Wednesday, August 24, 2005*

It is not the future that you strive to reach,

But it is because you know your future is bright in His promises,

That you enjoy your journey towards there.

It is not a 'have to', but a 'want to!'

Enjoy resting in Daddy's perfect love.

For those who know that they are His Beloved,

All things work out good!

*Monday, August 15, 2005*
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What Jesus has called you to be...
NO WORRIES
He will fulfill!
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Let Daddy God take care of everything. Live the
'LET GO, LET GOD' LIFE!
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Just be still
and
watch His awesome power.
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*Sunday, August 14, 2005*

Here's a little something I wrote recently. It's really important to identify with Christ in us, the Hope of Glory! When you start being conscious of Christ in you... ahh... that is when there is POWER! Amen! :D

In the daily challenges I face...

obstacles that try to stumble me.

I look to Jesus,

His name I lift up high.

It is when I know that,

I know that I know,

Christ is within me,

the Hope and Glory,

and Faith rises up, just because...

all that I have to do is REST -

in Daddy's powerful arms,

in Daddy's unwavering love.

He carries me,

and I soar!

Above all circumstances,

Prosperous in all that I do!

Amen! ~ Cheers, Shamane, HIS beloved :D

Welcome my friends!

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Welcome my friends! I have a created a new blog and have moved here =) Feel free to make yourself at home. Will be updating it again soon!

P.S

To all who are studying for their exams which is in... 4 WEEKS time, all the best! Just enjoy this process of studying. The reward will be more than satisfying! =)